ok so normally i don't do this i think it's going to drive me nuts not to mention you nuts too but i just had this feeling like really i had to shpleel everything that is on my mind like super quickly and the only way i could think to do it is in one big run on sentance so really tonight i am thinking a lot about how i feel like i am being left behind in the social scheme of things like how everyone is hooking up with everyone else or how people are moving on or have some kind of plan for their lives and then there is just me but also i have such a huge lack of faith i mean like towards God but there is no real good reason for it except i feel like a stalker like I know OF him but do not KNOW him *sigh* i feel like i might be able to sleep now why is it that i feel like such a burden is lifted?